I used to sit And stay awake all night Waiting for the dawn The advent Of a fresh day With new beginnings The rising of the sun An inspiring metaphor Of how I would lift myself From the dirt But it never panned out The way I envisaged And in time I realised my mistake… Continue reading Waiting For The Sunrise
Category: Depression & Mental Health
Almost
You almost had me beat Made me think I would never stand again On my own two feet You almost won this fight Had me on the ropes Cowering against the blows Landing left and right I was almost counted out Flat out on the canvas To continue would be madness The referee… Continue reading Almost
The Invisible Cage
Each year it comes; An anniversary Awakening The memory Of desperate times And misery An airless bubble Suffocating me A cage that no-one Else can see From which I still fight To be set free Invisible To all but me Response to the Word of the Day Challenge prompts: desperate, anniversary & bubble
untitled poem – something about anxiety
Excessive self analysing Serious misgivings Forever second guessing Every action, every word Confronted by Insurmountable walls of fear Blocking me Every way I turn But I don't even know What I am terrified of I have nothing to fear Nothing to lose No money, no fame Neither popular nor cool But still I am scared… Continue reading untitled poem – something about anxiety
Citizen of Darkness
A frisson of excitement Frees me If only for a moment From the prison I too often Find myself inside Barely able to function Forced to suffer The pains of yesterday How did I ever get this way? No longer living I survive Having lost all zest for life A citizen of Darkness Since I was… Continue reading Citizen of Darkness
Native
I do worry Sometimes That were I to rid myself Of my depression I would be cutting away A part of me For surely these feelings Existed Inside of me from the beginning A disease, yes But invasive, no Is it right to kill A native species Even when it longs to destroy… Continue reading Native
The Long Road
The journey’s long But the day is young There’s much to see And much more to learn Don’t be afraid To lose your way To veer off course To go astray Take the road That no-one knows Where no-one goes And maps don’t show This journey’s yours So go explore Find what… Continue reading The Long Road
Wellbeing
People think wellbeing Is about being well But it's not I mean, look at me I'm not well I haven't been for a long time I maybe never will But I'm in a good place Compared to where I've been I've found comfort and contentment To me that's good wellbeing Even if it isn't being… Continue reading Wellbeing
Moth to the Flame
Like a moth To the flame My unguarded mind Is drawn To the thoughts I know will serve Only to burn But I suffer The flame Enduring The burning For the biggest mistake I could make Would be to shy Away from the fire Away from the light And live a life In darkness Response… Continue reading Moth to the Flame
Mental Masochism
It was meant to be my penance Self-imposed punishment But in time I grew to love the pain I inflicted on myself I became addicted To the torment inside Eating me alive I gave in To masochistic tendencies Allowing the disease To take over And infect my mind I gave it control Over my entire… Continue reading Mental Masochism
