Cold steel in my hand Shimmering I flick my thumb across the blade The soft ping reverberates in my ears The edge is keen Ready I need a release I long for catharsis I wield the knife And begin to cut   I always find cooking to be so therapeutic

If my life were a movie You wouldn’t need an actor To play me; The writers would surely cut my character Before the film ever saw the light of day And I’d be just another discard With all life’s other rejects on the cutting room floor

One of the many keys To my survival is finding The often elusive upside And each cloud’s silver lining   Always searching For a positive to take From every disaster From all my mistakes   And every lesson I learn Is a chance to grow It’s a victory to me No matter how hollow   […]

There is so much I must still learn Things I need to know But no-one can teach me Because I cannot be taught I learn from experience Through sights and sounds Through action and emotion What is written in textbooks Will never be teachable to me I have to see it Hear it Do it […]

I’m digging deep For the memories That I buried Long ago Searching hard For the answers To the questions That I ask Of the world Of myself Of everything I think I know So that I Can satisfy My need to fully Understand The reasons why I cry

I’ve neglected myself Not cared for my health Focused on others But now as I suffer They turn their backs Unable to look As I kneel Head on the block And the headsman, Depression, RaisesĀ his axe

There’s something missing From the world today I don’t know what it is But I’m sure it was still there Yesterday But then again I’ve been locked away For far too long Within myself I can only remember How it all used to be

I can’t seem to make it out of second gear Crawling my way through yet another year I don’t know what of but I’m afraid And the overwhelming uncertainty and fear Keeps me from shifting gear I can’t get the clutch to engage I see the others in fast lane Passing me by And I […]

If it feels like I’m pushing you away That’s just my way Of begging you to stay   If it seems like I’m showing you the door I’m not telling you to leave I’m asking you to never go that way   If I act like I want to be alone Don’t leave me on […]