Panic Attack

I went a little off track Hope it's nothing more Than a just minor setback Don't want to have to backtrack Track back Back along the beaten track Uncovering the old cracks Filling up my backpack With the stack of weights that I thought I'd left behind Don't make me go back Back where my [...]

Almost

You almost had me beat Made me think I would never stand again On my own two feet   You almost won this fight Had me on the ropes Cowering against the blows Landing left and right   I was almost counted out Flat out on the canvas To continue would be madness The referee [...]

The Invisible Cage

Each year it comes; An anniversary Awakening The memory Of┬ádesperate times And misery An airless bubble Suffocating me A cage that no-one Else can see From which I still fight To be set free Invisible To all but me   Response to the Word of the Day Challenge prompts: desperate, anniversary & bubble

Native

I do worry Sometimes That were I to rid myself Of my depression I would be cutting away A part of me   For surely these feelings Existed Inside of me from the beginning A disease, yes But invasive, no   Is it right to kill A native species Even when it longs to destroy [...]

Wellbeing

People think wellbeing Is about being well But it's not I mean, look at me I'm not well I haven't been for a long time I maybe never will But I'm in a good place Compared to where I've been I've found comfort and contentment To me that's good wellbeing Even if it isn't being [...]

Just A Little Bit Broken

You tell me that You're broken As though It's a reason For me not to love you And simply walk away   But it's never going to happen Like how I still drink my coffee Every morning from my favourite mug Despite the chipped rim And cracked handle Knowing that one day It will cut [...]

Moth to the Flame

Like a moth To the flame My unguarded mind Is drawn To the thoughts I know will serve Only to burn But I suffer The flame Enduring The burning For the biggest mistake I could make Would be to shy Away from the fire Away from the light And live a life In darkness Response [...]

Mental Masochism

It was meant to be my penance Self-imposed punishment But in time I grew to love the pain I inflicted on myself I became addicted To the torment inside Eating me alive I gave in To masochistic tendencies Allowing the disease To take over And infect my mind I gave it control Over my entire [...]

Beneath the Dule Trees

I close my eyes Drift off to sleep Float away To a far away place Where the night never ends Yet the stars never shine Walking a path Lined with dule* trees Ropes hanging from long dead boughs And each tree named After a regret A failure A trauma from my past Every demon living [...]

Finding The Positives

One of the many keys To my survival is finding The often elusive upside And each cloud's silver lining   Always searching For a positive to take From every disaster From all my mistakes   And every lesson I learn Is a chance to grow It's a victory to me No matter how hollow   [...]