I don’t want to be looked at Over the tops of glasses To the sound of a pen Scratching frantically on the pages Of a notebook My words analysed and scrutinised But the way that I say them All but ignored   I want to be listened to Not just the words that I speak […]

One of the many keys To my survival is finding The often elusive upside And each cloud’s silver lining   Always searching For a positive to take From every disaster From all my mistakes   And every lesson I learn Is a chance to grow It’s a victory to me No matter how hollow   […]

There is so much I must still learn Things I need to know But no-one can teach me Because I cannot be taught I learn from experience Through sights and sounds Through action and emotion What is written in textbooks Will never be teachable to me I have to see it Hear it Do it […]

I’m digging deep For the memories That I buried Long ago Searching hard For the answers To the questions That I ask Of the world Of myself Of everything I think I know So that I Can satisfy My need to fully Understand The reasons why I cry

I’ve neglected myself Not cared for my health Focused on others But now as I suffer They turn their backs Unable to look As I kneel Head on the block And the headsman, Depression, RaisesĀ his axe

Monsters dwell Beyond the walls I built to keep me From my hell So here I dwell Within these walls I built to keep me Safe and well I miss the world Beyond those walls I built to shield me From the cold So I construct worlds Within these walls That no reality Will ever […]

Deep in the darkest forest Amidst the weather-worn trees Gnarled branches intertwined Blocking out the light There lies a cabin Small and tired-looking Lonely   But through the cobwebbed windows And crack beneath the door A soft glow emanates For a fire burns in that cabin Providing comfort, warmth and light Refuge and respite A […]

Self harm Isn’t just slit wrists Cuts on your arms Putting out cigarettes On your thighs   Self harm Is ignoring the storm Never seeking calm Letting the weight inside Pull you down It’s papering the cracks Ignoring the fact That you’ve fallen down And you lack the strength To get back up On your […]

This is the wake-up call That I’ve been waiting for A kick up the backside To start assessing What needs addressing And face the problems I should’ve been solving Don’t worry – I’m not changing I’m staying true to myself Just evolving Upgrading the software Keeping the system the same I’ll still be me Just […]

Forever stumbling Through pitch black tunnels Searching for a light But there’s never an end in sight   Forever fumbling In the darkness before me Hoping for a door A ladder A handle A light Just an end to the nothingness But there’s never an end in sight   At times I fall Landing on […]